busy days

It’s just the beginning.

This week supposed to be a long weekend but it’s a busy week instead, rushing like mad for OB assignment.

Deadline next monday, accts test on wed (no weightage) Ppl get the mindset of nt studying since it carries no weightage. But no, its some kind of satisfaction.

I got a mere Distinction for my accts, was glad and hard work really pays off i finally see. OB was a mere passed by 0.5 marks, calls for even harder work and effort. i shall try, eng essays and theories are just no me.

school’s like ending in 2 weeks time, its like i just started school. I hate this kinda time flies feeling. Its alr sept! before i knew it 2010 is gonna end. Each time the time hits sept oct, i wished it slows down bcus i flies extremly fast.

I’m still in e midst of planning my 21st bday, waiting for all the guests confirmation. Its gonna be a blast! A day i’ve been waiting for

I have work ltr, its only e 2nd day but i’m kinda errrr having the not-wanting-to-work-and-study feel alr. It hard to juggle here and there and i rly cant bear to miss out family days. Hang on for 3mths and that’s it ! Once khim gonna start working, weekends are gonna be extremely impt.

Alright, we had a huge fight of screaming at each other, vulgarities. It was just so silly to fight bcus of a stranger flirting and both saying hi to each other. But wait, which gal can take that ? Khim just doesnt gets the point and insisted it was just a hi.

Horrible fight screaming up and down, boiling, anger, HATRED.

I hate it when its like a time bomb exploding anytime, i dont look like a bomb ground to throw right?

anyway, its all cool now. as long as we learn to cool down and talk things 0ut. We both have horrible temper.

Yday was a cold day, was supposed to head to his home to relax and acc his parents and then snuggle up for the night, but he stupidly choose to drive back to my home and quarrel downstairs.

When anger is ard, all kind of harsh words just split out. 

i hope there’s no much such fights, if not its not gonna end, tough times gonna come, instead of fighting all long why not treasure and cherish the limited time we have tgt.

Alright i hope i can organize my time well this weekends, lotsa outings but baby’s parents are not in, its dog-sitting time again. Next week gonna be the most horrible busy-est week. Hope it gets over soon.

In the cold weather, snuggle up and savour ice creammsss (:

AwWWWWwwww.

Work is starting next sun, its too fast !

i cant accept the fact of working yet ! somehow i’m starting to have doubts working, i don wanna sacrifice the family time for work. But then like that there wouldnt be extra income and i would be struggling

Sighh.

I wish i had a solution, perhaps i will start hunting for a weekday job alr. I hate working on weekends and i nvr do.

Alt i spent the weekends with b but its still nvr enough, considering the fact that he is gonna start working soon (i hope?)

This week sucks bcus we both are extra busy But i dont care, i’m working this weekend, i would try all i can to spend any extra time tgt.

Oh yeah i went for Fab’s 21st chalet at NRSCC is was gorgeous !

i love it so much compared to Aranda but well think of the transport and accesibility for others. I’m gonna start planning my 21st bday soon!  Not gonna be that easy.

Love ya baby !

This whole mth has been so beautiful, caught fireworks at least 3 4 times this mth. Everyone asked me, looking at the same thing over and over again, arnt you bored?

Hey, no.

This is my obsession for fireworks

i love how the sky could be so beautiful.

and how that you are the fireworks in yr love ones life.

YOG had the best fireworks ever ! National day’s was a dissapointment.

So on that sat i had my accts test, after that we all headed down to town for dinner and walked all the way to fullerton starbucks and stayed there throughout the night waiting for the every few mins of fireworks and the finale.

It was gorgeous.

I appreciate how everyone of us are together despite the guys didnt like seeing fireworks and felt it was a waste of time.

Khim had his db performance so i only met him after that to head home tgt.

They even had fireworks last fri sat sun. We went over on sat night after Grandma’s bday dinner. It was nice of khim to park for $5 per entry just for that 3mins of fireworks.

It was worth it !

Sunday we was on our way down again and suddenly i just told khim tt i didnt wanna watch because i didnt want him to drive all the way down when his so tired. so we headed to ice edge cafe.

Exams assignments are piling up, deadlines are nearing.

Work is starting next week, i really wonder if i can cope.

khim is hunting for job now, i’m glad he finally starts planning for his career.

i need to work save and earn for my holiday, i have been to getaway, i’m considering bkk, hk or taiwan. Kinda stupid cause i’ve been to this places recently. But its different getting away with your friends and prolly yr loves ones. Provied khim is interested.

SO money start rolling in pls !

We are the fireworks in each other life.

When things change

I’ve tried not to be paranoid, but things just happens naturally.

1year ago was what happen that has left that huge imprint in me.

Yes till date, i’m still trying to get over it, before i can even do, things are falling apart once again.

It’s nvr easy to nurse a broken wound, and then when the wound gets dig up again

Does anyone ever understand how it feels? How fearful it is?

You need me to trust you, but when wound starts getting open up again, can i still trust you again?

No, i cant bcus i nvr knw when will be the next time you hurt me again.

Monday blues

Heavy Monday blues.
6 hours lecture tml starting from 830.

I haven’t had any much proper rest since last week at all. My body is gonna give way soon.

Shall upload photos when I’m free, Saturday was one of the best day ever. Caught the YOG fireworks, it was beautiful ! I’m glad I had them with me (:

Anyway sometimes I feel that my patience is running low. As much as I care but still can’t be bothered anymore.

You never once knew yr priorities or even my importance.

I don fcuking understand, isn’t training enough tt you even have to go on weekdays morning. When you yourself knows how much rest and sleep you need. Of all why must you always get yourself involve in EVERYTHING

In the first place do they even appreciate.

I see a limit to my patience.

I shld really stop relying on you

I can’t believe you have change, you are selfish, you don’t even care. I don’t need you to give in to me.

Thanks

Certified Driver

Okay, Finally after wasting so much time and money i finally PASSED.

i passed purely 100% based on luck, the tester was so damn lenient. I parked and did everything ard the circuit so badly and he closed both eyes ! Even on the road ! and he didnt even test me on some parts and in my mind i was repeatedly telling myself, fail liao, fail liao fail liao.

Followed him into e room, feeling so disappointed and dishearted.

He came out giving me a smile and said you see : PASSED.

I was so lucky to get such a wonderful tester, he told he he didnt mark me on many parts,  i really nearly wanted to go give him a hug !

Thanks Hb for being there waiting for me, i know you were even more nervous then me, silly.

For the pass few days, i dont knw isit that i’m so stressed up. I cant slp at night, blame it on my wild imagination and timidness. I have no mood to study at all and its already wed. 2 more days to accts test.

Hb’s been really busy, our timing have been crashing ! And i always have to make noise, he always gives in to me but i doubt he ever wonder why i’m doing this.

This whole week thurs fri sat he is so busy, we dont even get any proper night together, so i wanted hb to stay with me last night as well as to celebrate. But he doesnt understands why !

Next week, its gonna be tue wed thurs fri night, so i’m only left with mon night. It’s like back to the past where things get so busy all over again. 

Bcus of that stupid YOG our sat is burn and there is fireworks this sat, its gonna be so much better then NDP but hb’s cant bring me to catch them.

And worst still after my test i cant get to relax and chill out with hb.

Next week’s gonna be worst ! Its the 7th mth & i dare nt stay home all alone, hb’s gonna be busy for most nights.

大木头

Why do i always have to tell you what to do and all, why is it that you nvr make exceptions for me, why is it that you nvr once knw what to do, why is it that you are nvr automatic.

You always just says that i nvr appreciates what you do & i’m nvr contented but you dont knw the truth ! you nvr know and think of the reasons behind it before.

Because i care, i mind, i love you and i need you,

But do you know this?

National Day

we love kiteflying (:

Hb’s so into kite flying now

our eagle  (:

Saturday went over to Gab’s place to did bubble dye ! Gt cheated, prepared to had my hair dyed red but it turn out as usual. Kinda boring.

I’m gonna dye again 1mth ltr. We went for Wen dou sek after finally huh hb. They had durian and after tt we headed to Mustafa. Parking there is horrible ! shopped till 1am without realising, had driving the next day and hb has training so we left first.

It’s TP tml, i’m scare. I’m worried if i fail again no one’s gonna bother helping me to pay and all anymore. It’s always the nervousness that lead to screwing things up. I wishd i could kick off this horrible phobia.

*prays hard*

hopefully i can get some good slp too, havent been slping well past few days. And its not even the 7th mth yet ! blame it on my wild imagination and timidness. Horrible me ! i wanna overcome this if nt the whole mth of aug gonna be terrible for me , and for baby as well.

It’s NATIONAL DAY today.

Baby & i are gonna see fireworks in the evening after he finish studying (:

YIPPEEE ! i hope he doesnt comes up with any sudden excuse and dump me! This happened last yr, he end up being lazy & then we just stayed home I guess today he wont because he has been nice talking about it yday.

I wanna be that fireworks in your life, bring sparks light and colors in your life. Forever, it shall be.

Although, sometimes i rly got so mad i feel like strangling you esp when it comes talking to you. I”M JUST TALKING TO A BLOCK OF WOOD with no reaction.  i rather talk to the wall. It sucks, nobody likes getting no reply and reaction and this is pissing me really badly !

Okay i don wanna get reminded of this to spoil my day.

And sometimes i feel you changed, when you lose your temper and said hurtful words. fcuking sucks.

Arghhh…

i always have to remind myself of your gentleness giving me love and care to cover all that up, This is when love is not  finding someone perfect but loving someone imperfectlyl

Dead tired !

After finally we went for our pig-nic and kite flying ! The weather was horriblleee. i melted and nearly died from heatstroke man !  Had a bad bad throbbing headache,

I imme went to the umbrella and hide under it.

After till the sun goes down then i felt better but by then i was already drained by the sun.

However we still had much much fun flying e kite, silly bby was enjoying himself so much !

We went back to woodlands to had steamboat for dinner with his parents.

i’m extremely having a bloated tummy and i cant bring myself to just go to slp

National day is comingg ! means fireworks !

Actually dad asked to go to his boss’s place for buffet & fireworks but i don knw why he says only  4 of us cause he feels it isnt very nice.

How can i go ahead with baby ! i want to watch fireworks with baby badly ! And i believe part of the reason that he didnt work on national day bcus his afraid i wld be unhappy.

so i’m going to go watch the fireworks with baby instead!

i know baby always says that no matter how much he has done, i’m never satisfied and appreciative of them. But NO.

i appreciate for everything done.

Its bliss, its love. True love. I know that. And hw when i’m always scare you are always there by me protecting me, no matter hw ugly hw unglam i may look you still smile at me with love. I love the way you love me, the way you always hold me hand through. And i know with you, i’m always safe. That is love.

Exams blues

Accounts test was supposed to be this sat but just known that it is postponed to next sat.

Seriously, wtf!

i’m already almost done and now postponed it is gonna be so packed with BS test too. Things and plans already made for this whole week and now accts test is postponed !!!!

I cant change plans anymore, like driving, i have to sticked with sunday which is damn tiring and SIAN.

awww Screw it ! Exams suckss !

I need another little short getaway. Kite Flying? Picnics? Good foods? taking walks early in the morning? Nice breakfast? and Sleepovers !

i’m stress up over exams and TP.

I cant imagine failing again !

On a side note, HB’s been very nice, getting me a longchamp ! knowing his fren is going to Korea he gave money to him to get me the longchamp before even asking me!  (: