Birthday wishes :)

In another 20 days, its the big days !

i didnt realise it was just another 20 days.

my head’s bursting from all the preparation. After exams and now this big birthday preparation.

My parents cant be bothered, Daddy said ” You want this party  you go and settle yourself, we are busy enough dont come and disturb us.” Mommy said ” you know i hate doing this kind of things so you want you settle yourself”

So here i am struggling alone to settle everything. My guests are overwhelming. It totals up to nearly 80 90.

Its extreme and crazy.

20 days is really errrr. i seriously didnt know it was that close.

I have so many to-dos not done yet.

Gotta bug up!

My decorating items and scrap book are the priority !

habit or love?

I’ve always qns myself this question.  Actually, its true that as time goes by, habit naturally overtakes love. But is effort enough to feel the love again?

I dont know is it that i’m tired or, i just dont feel the same anymore.

I’ve tried countless time,to make things right. It just fails.

I have damn little tolerance for patience.

perhapds i give up easily. but after i did try even harder.

it just falls back to last year end again, when ever khim gets sick its like the whole world is crashing down on me BUT not him? what in the hell did i do to deserve this? ok he gets sick i have to take care of him, be there for him. But the pressure i’m holding on is much more for me to handle. Adding on exams.

Even after finishing my exams, i didnt thought of enjoying and celebrating, instead i rushed all the way down to the race site for 2 days.

I know this sound thick skin but i can say for this past 1 week i can say it loudly i’ve done alot already.

People are always telling me i’m doing too much,i’m always putting others, esp my bf infront of everything then myself.

i’ve never knew and believed it because i know how spoilt i am, i always just wanna get what i want. But come to think of it, when it comes to love. i’m totally wrong.

I dont know what i should do now, maybe i really need a break for all this shit.

I had enough taking everything, i have my temper, i do show my temper but it all surfaces after the limit.